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Hello everyone, Here is a quick update on my current session. Yes, I am self-locked due to circumstances… It has been ten days without an orgasm and my mind tells me I don’t need one yet. My body isn’t protesting too much either; there have just been a few attempts to get hard, but the cage prevents it. Yes, I did some anal play and prostate milking last week, but no touching of the “clitty” (penis). It happened twice, on Monday and Friday. I am wearing my smallest cage (Chinese steel; see attached photo). It surprises me that I can manage this long in this device. I am fairly new to chastity and have experimented with three different devices, but the first one I got remains my favorite, even though the base ring is too big. I adjusted some sports tape to make it smaller and prevent the cage from sliding down too much. Last night brought serious edema; I went downstairs for an ice pack, but it didn’t solve the problem. Eventually, I took the cage off around two o’clock (I kept a picture of my number lockbox because I don’t trust Emlalock too much yet). Sleeping was fine after taking it off, and when I put it back on 12 hours later, everything calmed down. I have been securely locked ever since. The main issue is that I am uncut, and my body seems to be slowly adapting to the new situation. Patience has never been my best quality, I guess. I tried another Chinese cage with a urethral tube, but it causes an enormous bulge in my pants. As a man, I could be proud of that, but normally I am fairly small-shaped (a “grower”). Besides, I love having a flat look at all times, or at least somewhat ladylike. To smooth everything out and prevent too much chafing, I wear a pad (special thong model) all day. I don’t leak yet, but it could happen in the coming days; meanwhile, it gives me a smooth front. I love wearing panties, especially lacy ones. However, they don’t give enough support—at least that is what I have found out these days. They provide a very nice feminine feeling, but the tight male thong works best for me. I have been wearing male thongs full-time for over 18 years. With two kids around, I have to be cautious so they don’t accidentally bump into my crotch. Not only because of discovery but also to avoid hurting myself. I have gone to many places without keys nearby; everything seems fine. It gives a nice snug feeling being locked up and even staying limp for several hours. Yes, I get aroused, but it seems more mental than physical. The “problem” is that I don’t have a goal yet. Yes, of course: staying locked, not allowed to touch, no cumming—only leaking or prostate milking. But for how long? With what purpose? I don’t know; any suggestions?