Novices and newbies discussion

As I’ve noted in other threads here, I’m torn between wanting to stay locked up so my hands stop bothering my dick and still being able to have normal sex with my wife. She’s pretty vanilla (though improving!), but for now she sees intimacy as me penetrating her and finishing inside. With the extra 20 pounds, getting older, and taking blood pressure meds, I can’t always get a stiff erection when it matters. So at my most recent visit, I talked my doctor into prescribing twenty doses of 20-mg Cialis tablets. You know this is an American adventure made possible by drug companies, insurers, and the FDA. I headed to Walgreens (a chain pharmacy) to fill the prescription—eager to feel those youthful woods again! But the price tag for just 20 pills was $1,556 USD! I left them on the counter and walked out. I called my doctor back, and she agreed to write a script for Viagra instead. She suggested trying Costco because it might be cheaper. So off I went to Costco and stood in line. First hurdle: the gorgeous 20-something cashier girl. Being clever, I asked her, “Are you a pharmacist?” Fortunately, the answer was no, so she pointed me to another counter where I could speak with an older woman who is indeed a pharmacist. Their price for Cialis was about $1,300. For 100-mg Viagra (an equivalent dose), it was $1,080. However, she mentioned that generic Viagra costs around $550. Woot. Then she suggested something else I should discuss with my doctor: a bottle of 100 tablets of Sildenafil at 20 mg each… I can take anywhere from one to five pills for a dose matching the original prescription, and the entire bottle is only $85! Does anyone have experience using Sildenafil? I’m not sure if my doc will approve it, but it’s definitely more attractive than paying $78 per erection! Finally, as I walked away feeling excited about what lies ahead, I glanced back at that lovely young cashier—she was grinning from ear to ear. It seems the other customers had cleared out, so she heard our whole chat! So much for avoiding public embarrassment (if only she knew about the small, ultra-short cage under my jeans!). Thanks in advance for any advice or shared experiences!