Introductions discussion

Hello everyone, I’m new here and seeking guidance on handling the emotional aspects of long-term chastity. Here’s where I stand right now: About two years ago, my wife found out about my brief affair. The other woman didn’t work out, so I tried to make amends (I was actually sleeping in my car outside my workplace at the time and needed a way back home). After sitting down with her, she agreed to take me back. However, after about a month, she started having doubts, worrying that I wasn’t being truthful and wondering how she could be sure I wasn’t getting up to mischief! I had seen some domination porn which introduced me to the concept of chastity, so I brought it up. She was enthusiastic about the idea, and we ordered a CB6000. I tried the CB6000, staying locked in with one release per week for Sunday morning sex. Eventually, the plastic parts broke, so my wife looked online and bought a steel Master Series device. It’s quite bulky but much stronger. One day there was an emergency; she couldn’t find the key to unlock the device. After applying some lube, we managed to get it off. I felt relieved at that moment, though she later aired her concerns about how easily that could happen. About seven weeks ago, after a release day, my wife reinstalled my device. This time, she had applied some kind of permanent glue around the inside of the ring. I protested a little but didn’t realize how significant it was until I looked closer. The glue hardened to both the metal and my skin/pubic hair, making escape nearly impossible. She also glued the threads on the lock screws. Every few days or so for about a week since then, she checks the lock and applies more glue because the previous layers are corroding. I’ve been told that when I orgasm, I tend to get moody, which is why this solution works best. The Master Series has gaps at the ends, and she has been stimulating near my frenulum to create those incredibly frustrating ruined orgasms once a week (she calls them “teasy treats”). As you can probably guess, here’s my dilemma: She gets full orgasms every other night while I have to hold her vibrator and pretend we’re having sex, then lick her until she climaxes. Meanwhile, I get this annoying dribble from the lock once a week that turns her on so much she wants an immediate climax afterward. I asked if I’d ever be allowed a normal orgasm again, and the answer was a definitive no! If I fail to make her sex life amazing, I have to sleep on the floor. On top of all this, my household chore list is extensive. Since her sister kicked out her boyfriend, I’m there for five hours every Saturday (my wife works Saturdays) and two hours on Wednesday completing tasks from a list written by her sister next to one item: “the kitchen and bathroom floors need cleaning; I don’t have a mop! Enjoy lol x.” Her sister was part of the meeting when I came back home, so she knows if I step out of line, I’ll be sleeping in my car again. She also knows that I’m sexually denied, although she doesn’t know it’s enforced with chastity. I cleaned her sister’s bathroom last week, but upon inspection, she stormed downstairs and pointed out that I’d missed under the sink. As punishment, she nips the back of my arms—it hurts like hell! When my wife sees the bruises, she just laughs and says I need to get a grip because “you know how fussy she is.” Sorry for the long post; I could go on forever—but this situation is driving me crazy. I enjoyed chastity and having to be good for a week before getting my release on Sunday morning, but these “teasy treats” do nothing to ease the frustration. Plus, I feel like I’m receiving the worst treatment from both my wife and her sister since my demeanor has become quite submissive after not having real orgasms in so long! The reason for my post is that I have two choices: leave home and live in my car until the glue breaks down (about a week) and lube my way out of the device, or stay at home as part of a family and seek advice on dealing with the sexual frustration I’m feeling. Thank you, M