My keyholder has a partner and I am starting to mind about it

This was completely clear from day one. She is partnered, he knows, everyone is fine, and I signed up to something that was never going to be more than what it is. Seven months in it has been good.

What I did not anticipate is that I would start minding. Not about anything she does, she has been consistent and kind. I mind on the evenings when I know she has gone off to have a normal Saturday and I am here having a rule about it.

Is this a thing that passes, or is it the thing that tells me remote is not for me?