Female led relationships discussion

I have fantasies about various kinky fetishes, yet I’ve never actually put them into practice. It centers on being submissive, a slave, or even a sissy cuckold. The most I’ve managed so far is wearing a small chastity device or full belt (including Neosteel models) to lock myself in. I couldn’t last longer than 24 hours before getting upset about release, and my wife agreed with me. Many people online suggest that starting out is always hard, but you’ll get used to it mentally afterward.

Now, I’m quite “lucky” because my wife understands both my fantasies and the challenges involved. We aren’t just interested in treating this as a bedroom game; if we do it, we want to make it part of our lifestyle rather than short-term play. She mentioned that if I decide to go for it, I need to stay locked up and be milked by her (I haven’t been milked yet). I’ll have to wear the chastity device to work and live with it, accepting whatever feelings come along.

Yes, definitely an arousing idea, but I truly realize that reality is much harder than my imagination. I am hesitating. I understand the biggest challenge isn’t about denied sex drive itself; it’s about how well I can sleep and maintain focus at work. Could long-term denial lead to depression or illness????

Any advice?