Introductions discussion

hey there, I came across cuckolding videos around three months back and then discovered chastity content. I’ve never ejaculated so quickly before in my life—it’s unbelievable. There is something about women taking charge, humiliating me, feminizing me, and holding all the power that really gets me going. I used to think it was weird; shouldn’t I be acting like a man? But I keep returning to it because it feels compulsive… I’m hooked. I read stories where the guy puts her desires ahead of his own, and when he finally gets permission to release, he has to clean up after himself. It turns me on so much that I think about it throughout my workday.

Is there a way out of these daydreams? Or is this just how I’m supposed to be? I mean, I am only 25 and normally quite masculine, but reading those stories makes me very aroused. Being single, should I look for a mistress or girlfriend to put me in a lock? Part of my mind resists because it feels like surrendering control over my life, yet sexually it seems paradise…

I’m unsure what path to take; any truthful thoughts are welcome.. btw this isn’t just an imaginary idea but something real that I need assistance with