Personal ads - Looking for a keyholder or sub? discussion

Hi there, I’ve lived through true extreme chastity while wearing a heavy, robust, and secure belt. I have spent the last several years locked in it continuously, broken up into periods of multiple months. For instance, I was confined for 75% of 2016 and 95% of 2017 right up until now, managing only three orgasms this year. That most extreme fantasy has been nagging me for over a decade, so I’ve chosen to make that bizarre, strong inner masochistic pull come true. It involves an intense, hard chastity punishment lasting many years, potentially extending through my lifetime and beyond. Having multiple phases helps prevent early release from being seen as just a reward for good behavior. I realize it sounds mad, but the need is so deep I must satisfy this strong masochistic urge. The sensation of total control by a harsh, cruel Sadist who judges me strictly during long periods is what I crave. She has complete freedom to punish me without needing any specific reason. Ultimately, my service exists for her ultimate orgasms derived from these punishments. Naturally, I don’t want to waste the rest of my life trapped in this restrictive iron belt forever. However, my masochism demands that high risk and possibility of becoming truly fixed; once it happens, there should be no turning back. The choice becomes: no more choices regarding sexual freedom. I believe punishments should only increase in duration, never reducing ever again. I want to feed the need to battle against rising time penalties on, for example, while ensuring punishment is always being served. An impulsive sentence of months or even years because she wants to cum means I must serve that time if she regrets her judgment after climaxing. Just get punished, stay quiet, and endure. I enjoy dating women frequently. I have a particular fetish for sexy girls wearing long socks, pantyhose, leather knee boots, bodystockings, etc. Most of these ladies wear such attire specifically when I express that it excites me. The feeling that the lock on my belt is held by an extreme sadistic master turns me on intensely. Thus, my key must be grabbed by the right person. Of course, I might feel regret after a few months; that’s human nature. But I want to experience this ‘no way back’ situation and perhaps remain locked for life. Even if freedom becomes increasingly unlikely over time, the harder I fight for hope, believing I still have a chance to be unlocked. And should I ever get brief unexpected moments of freedom… That will provide my ultimate satisfaction which I’ve craved from the start, though likely not so much if you are indeed the right sadist for me. Please message me if you are truly serious and interested. Thank you for reading, whether or not it’s your cup of tea. :)