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I’m testing out wearing a chastity device for 30 days to make sure it’s right before I bring it up with my fiancé. I’ve set down some rules to guide this experiment. The guidelines are straightforward:

1. The device stays on when I’m away from home or not in the company of my fiancé.
2. Climaxing is allowed only during intercourse with her.
3. This lasts for 30 days; if I still want it afterward, I’ll ask my fiancé to become my key holder.
4. I will behave as though the device is always locked on me.
5. I won’t be the one starting sex with my fiancé. Day 1 went well. Day 2 yesterday was pure misery; all day long I could only think about my cock and releasing cum. At work, wearing it made control difficult. I had to stop myself three times while walking toward my car just to check for the keys. I couldn’t focus at work so I left early—that turned out to be an error. My fiancé went off to the store. Unable to resist, I jerked off while reading a story about a man being cuckolded. Feeling ashamed of myself, I started browsing threads on controlling orgasm urges and visited I’ve always believed in hypnosis, but as an experiment, I downloaded one titled “have a female orgasm.” WOW, that was unlike any orgasm I’ve ever had. So then I grabbed another track about allowing myself to stay chaste and listened to it. Hopefully this helps me today.