Introductions discussion

I’ve been poking around here off and on for a while, so I figured I’d hop in and chip in once in a while.

I’m a boyish 28-year-old guy who mostly likes older men. Chastity became my top kink back when I was about 23, after discovering it through porn.

The main reason chastity appeals to me is that I’m a chronic masturbator. For years, I’ve viewed masturbation as a bad habit. When I tried quitting, I found myself unable to stop.

If my unlocked and have been browsing chastity content (doesn’t even need to be hardcore porn), erotic material, or hookup sites with attractive profiles—or anything similar—I get impulses and thoughts urging me to jerk off. I’ve been trying for years, but now I just have to admit it. This isn’t really meant as a confession, though it sort of is.

I have a large penis that gets plenty of attention from other gay men when they see it, but topping doesn’t excite me much. I’m usually too nervous and feel awkward doing it.

When the impulse wins out and I jerk off and cum, it tanks my self-esteem and leaves me feeling like I’ve lost control over myself and my life. Chastity is pretty much a last resort for me after trying everything else: avoiding porn, wearing underwear to stop fiddling with myself, fighting hard but failing against smartphones or hookup sites, keeping a daily log of when and why I masturbated, and so on.

I’ve bought several Chinese steel devices in different sizes and qualities. They don’t fit very well (though I’ll be selling them later), and I also had knockoff CB6Ks which I’ve replaced with an official one.

This afternoon, I locked myself comfortably into my short CB6000 model. After going up a ring size due to painful skin, I’m feeling good now.

From here on out, count me as locked indefinitely.

Thanks for reading.