Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Hi all. I’ve been locked away for two months now, starting on November 15, 2017.

The background story is that I purchased a device, put it on myself, and handed the keys over to my wife. Then I admitted that I am addicted to masturbation and wasn’t sure how to stop unless I kept myself locked up and surrendered control to her. She felt hurt and inadequate at first, but I quickly reassured her; I told her it was never about her fault—it was entirely mine. I explained that I love her deeply and this is precisely why she has the keys.

This woman didn’t really understand chastity until just a week before my device arrived by mail. She even had to watch a video to confirm I was wearing it correctly. So, I went from masturbating five or six times a week to being unable to do so at all, despite wanting to (and believe me, I wanted to). Transitioning from freedom to 24/7 confinement made me realize just how long-term and permanent this could be. While I am getting used to it, there are days when I wish the device would stay off permanently. That is why giving the key to my lovely wife was such a smart move; she absolutely refuses to unlock me now. She did let me out for three days to heal previously, but since then, nothing has come loose.

The silver lining here is that our relationship has been revitalized. I have focused heavily on her needs and provided her with the best pleasure she’s had in a long time, all without using my own penis. She mentioned that I haven’t earned trust yet, let alone an orgasm for myself. I understand; I will earn back her trust even if she never unlocks me again because I love her too much to ruin things.

These past two months feel like two years. Hopefully, it becomes easier over time. Don’t misunderstand me—most of this confinement has been wonderful, but there are still days where the old desires for freedom kick in.

My wife let me know that I need to get accustomed to her version of a cage because nothing will make her unlock it.

Cleaning with Q-tips is quite an annoyance. I think my wife’s comment about never unlocking again came after she asked if I would behave myself if she took the device off for a day or so. Naturally, I gave an honest answer: probably not. It was a BIG MISTAKE to say that, but at least I didn’t lie to her, which might help later.

Does it get better as time goes on while locked up? Will my desire to be free remain strong? I am hoping for the former.