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About six months ago, I purchased my initial chastity device. The concept of surrendering control over my orgasms appealed to me greatly. For twenty-five years prior, I had masturbated daily; it was a necessity beyond my command. Mastering that urge became the primary attraction for me. I settled on the CB-6000s model. Although I encountered several reasons to be disappointed with it initially, I remained resolved to give it a serious try. This whole endeavor happened in secret. Within our marriage, I occupy the dominant position, especially regarding bedroom dynamics.

My objective was to keep the device locked whenever my wife wasn’t around. Surprisingly, this proved more difficult than expected. It required time to adjust to wearing it, and sleeping with it on during that first night felt like hell. The most frustrating aspect was realizing I could pull out at will if needed. Several anti-pullout devices were tried but ultimately failed me. After three months passed, I acquired a Looker 2. Even with the plug in place, this device offered comfort from the very start. Its security allowed me to last more than three days without an orgasm for the first time ever. It turned into a challenge: how long could I endure? As a wildcard strategy, I continued having sex with my wife while trying not to ejaculate. I would mimic orgasms when she did so we could quickly remove the condom. Often, I failed in keeping from cumming; ironically, the longer the chastity period lasted, the harder it became.

Two weeks ago, she discovered me wearing the device. I explained that my purpose was channeling sexual energy toward her. Following a lengthy discussion, she agreed I could keep wearing it if I wished. She even took one of the keys and hid the other away. Now, in my second week of full-time chastity, I still have access to the key should I need it, but asking permission is required. It feels strange—both thrilling and daunting. I am unsure where this path leads. For once, I am not the dominant one in charge. Yet, I find no desire to stop.