Female led relationships discussion

Myself and my KH/wife have been playing with chastity for a few years now. She is a willing participant, holds the keys, refuses release, and can be quite a tease. But I tend to go so far with giving her control that I get embarrassed and ruin the situation by complaining until I get released. This isn’t how I want things to go, but I cannot stop myself. I have no problem being locked in a device or belt on display for my KH/wife. We even went to Belgium three years ago to get me fitted for a full steel belt; she was present throughout the whole process while I was naked and another man fitted it. So it is not just a visual thing but more about the power transfer with a female controlling my penis. Does anyone know how I can overcome these feelings, get the pleasure I crave, and give my KH/wife what she deserves? I feel I owe it to her to sort this problem out.