Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

What’s going on with this? It has been just five days and I am eager to take off my belt for some fun. BUT at the same time, there is an intense urge inside me to push myself to the edge. I have read through all the forums, including altairboy, etc., and keep running into talk of a 3 month break-in period. As scary as that thought is, it is also very arousing. I want to be locked up for that long. it’s actually about three months plus from my birthday now, and mistress has been dropping hints that she might not let me out until then, like a big birthday gift. Every time she brings it up, a shiver runs down my spine, and I secretly wish she would keep me locked for that long, but at the same time, WTH!! what am i thinking.. the longer i stay in this belt, the more twisted my thoughts become. Right after cuming, i crash out, starting to wonder ‘what the hell am i thinking??’ But give me two days in the belt, and I’m fantasizing about being fucked, tied, spanked, etc, etc.. Mistress also tells me that I behave better when locked, so perhaps it benefits her too.. I think part of this is the challenge. To date my longest lockup was two weeks, and it wasn’t enough to break me.. i could have stayed locked longer.. i want to get to the point where i am climbing the walls, willing to do anything just to get out. I want my mistress to hold the power to punish with time spent in the cage, but right now, its kind of an empty threat, i want to stay locked up longer. I want to reach a state where having another week added is a grave threat instead of a turnon. I dont know if 3 months would do it or not, but i imagine i would quite want out by the end. I think one of the biggest problems is my mistress. She loves my cock, so it’s hard for her to keep me locked up for longer periods. And if it makes her happy to make love to me, who am i to say no? This of course brings up the cuckold subject. Its one of those things we talk about lots, fantasize about, but not sure if we will ever do it. That being said, one of my bigger fantasies is being chained from the ceiling in our bedroom watching my wife get her brains fucked out by a stud, and hopefully getting my ass done after, while cleaning out my wife. yum! But seriously, if she could have her cock requirements met without having to take me out of my cage, i dont think 3 months would be an issue for her. But then, perhaps i should shut up and keep my safety net in place. when it has been a month and i want out, it’s all that much more persuasive if she is wanting some cock..:)