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Anyone who has read my posts or those of my key holders (maddezins) knows we started this chastity play mainly for one reason: to help her learn she can trust me. Before this, I was the dominant one and she was submissive; I had never desired to be submissive myself, but I love her deeply and wanted to show her I am serious about being faithful and trustworthy. That was weeks ago now, and we both find ourselves loving our new roles. I enjoy being controlled by her, and she really loves having control. Over the past week, I think she must have taken a class or something because she said she has opened her eyes to this new role she is in. Whatever it was, for the last few days she has truly embraced the serious role of dominant woman and made it clear who her bitch is. The other night we were at a bar with some friends. I admit I had a little too much to drink (I love vodka), and when she told me to stop talking, as always, I did not. At some point during the evening, she mentioned to her good friend that I was locked in my chastity device. Next thing I knew, she grabbed me by my belt, pulled me over where she and her friend were sitting at a very busy bar (I might add), took off my belt, unzipped my pants, moved my boxers aside, and showed them my cock which was still locked up. I never—I mean NEVER—would have thought she would do something like that. I felt humiliated here I am, all tough with tattoos, always considered the kinky guy who loves tying up his girlfriend to all our friends, yet now there I stood letting her expose my locked cock at a packed bar to her friend and anyone else watching. I couldn’t move when she did it; she had such a look on her face like a switch had been flipped or something. I just stood there while she pushed me away and said, “Pull your pants up,” and that was it. But somehow, I was really turned on by the whole thing, even though if she had told me beforehand what she was going to do, I would have said, “Hell no, you crazy.” Since then, she has been very dominant most of the time; she can’t keep me locked for more than three days before getting horny. We just ordered a male strap-on so we can have sex while I stay locked. We also got her a nice leather dress; she is so fucken beautiful. I fantasize about seeing her in that black leather dress with her hair in a tight high ponytail, bright red lipstick, and heels. Just thinking about it gets me hard… So this past week has been weird to say the least. She did like a 360 after the bar incident: we ordered the strap-on, got the leather dress, she wants to go get a riding crop and some more heels. She is now truly my mistress without any question, and I love it. Funny thing is, three months ago I would have told her she was crazy if she said she wanted me to do half of what I am doing now; but now I almost beg for them. What have I gotten myself into? Whatever it is, I love it, and I love that I’m doing it with her. There is no other woman on earth I would do this for. In one of my posts, I asked if any key holders had tips or advice to send to her. I wonder did her flip have anything to do with someone on this site?????? If so, don’t tell her too badly; I’m still new to this. She told me she wants to see my balls turn black and blue! I am scared!!! lol. I am a little scared about the next time she ties me up, but I guess I’ll have to deal with it. I just can’t stop thinking about her in that leather dress. Dammit, I’m so horny right now. Does anyone have an extra key for this thing they could send me? lol. OK, it’s 5 am and I have to go to work; I just felt like venting a little and hearing some input.. ill post after we get our new toys.. i have a feeling i should not have gotten that strap on i really need to get laid…lol