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I’ve just begun the fifth day of my first genuine lockup. Up to now, everything has gone smoothly; the device fits nicely with only a bit of discomfort from morning wood.

It feels like every moment I’m awake involves thoughts of it. I really love the weight of it, yet it never allows me to forget that I am wearing it. I seem to be dripping constantly, and my desire for sex is strong!

My Keyholder is also enjoying this experience greatly. She has made sure I understand just how much control she holds over me and seems to thrive in her power.

Originally, the plan was for a release this weekend. However, this morning she mentioned that because I am handling the device so well, she wants to remove that guarantee from consideration. She intends to extend my lockup without giving me advance notice of when it will end!

While I truly enjoy being locked up, having a set release date made things relatively easy until now. Now that has shifted, and while the idea excites me greatly, it also worries me…lol.

When she mentioned this extension, I couldn’t help but get an erection immediately (which doesn’t take much these days), so I know I would be deceiving myself if I claimed otherwise. This is exactly what I signed up for in the first place. It will be fascinating to see how things unfold over the coming weeks.