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Hi everyone, I figured it was high time I chipped in. Writing isn’t my strongest suit, so please bear with me if anything is unclear.

I’m 33 and have been married for twelve years. As long as I can recall, I’ve always felt submissive. When we tied the knot, she wasn’t particularly dominant or submissive, nor was she deeply into that lifestyle yet. Over time, things shifted between us. I remained submissive and let her know. Slowly, she began exploring this world and stepped more toward the “Dominant” side. However, being fully dominant around the clock doesn’t quite suit her just yet.

Our dynamic has evolved into something of an “open” arrangement. We are both content with each other, but our desires differ: I yearn for submission and control, while she craves passionate, uninhibited sex. Because we have different needs, we both look outside the marriage to get them.

My wife tries hard to satisfy my needs, just as I do hers. This is where the chastity device fits in. When she’s at work during the day, she often has me dress up—panties, bra, nail polish, and makeup on. It used to drive me crazy because I’d end up ‘playing’ with myself multiple times a day. By the time she returned home, ready for sex, I would be thoroughly played out.

Now we have acquired a birdlock device. Since getting it, I’ve worn it in intervals of several hours. Today marks my first full day wearing it non-stop while she is away. She holds all the keys (keeping one hidden at home for emergencies). To ensure the device works properly and to test its hold, she made sure I looked presentable: makeup, polished nails, panties, bra, etc.

Honestly, there’s no escaping this contraption now, even though I’ve tried my best.

Anyway, getting back on track. This birdlock will keep me ready for her when she returns from work. We remain an open couple. Since being dominant constantly is a bit much for her right now, she encourages me to find someone else who can take that role. She’s perfectly fine sharing me and finds it arousing; she’d be happy to hand over the key to anyone willing to step up.

So far, no luck yet. The one Mistress I encountered couldn’t quite reach an agreement with my wife (long story—ask if you want details). But I haven’t lost hope.