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Feeling a little low today. After Mistress locked me up again on Sunday, I had a ball slip through the ring while at work on Tuesday. I grabbed an emergency key so I could remove the device. The plan was to reapply it that evening. Unfortunately my balls kept retreating when I tried to put the ring back on:( (I tied them tightly so they wouldn’t hide, but after placing the ring, my left ball slipped away, forcing me to take the ring off again). This happened a few times. So I left the device off Tuesday night and yesterday as well to let my balls recover. Last night after work, I went out with friends. By the time I got home late, my balls looked normal again, so I successfully put the ring back on—which felt great—and then took the cage off to give myself a chance to get used to wearing just the ring. I slept all night without issues and thought it was safe to put the cage back on. I tried putting the cage on, but my right ball hid itself away:( . I’m frustrated (not in a good way) and feeling a bit down about this. Any tips or advice would be greatly appreciated because I desperately want to succeed. When Mistress gains confidence in her approach, it will be nice to hand over total control so I can serve and please her, making her happy. Maybe I’m wanting this too much, which is why I’m having problems; I don’t know. Any help and advice greatly appreciated