When You Can't Resist the Urge

My current girlfriend and keyholder is far more involved in my chastity journey than my ex was. Consequently, I’ve become increasingly at ease with her authority and my urge to submit. This makes me less rebellious about staying locked up. Maybe it’s maturity, gratitude, or just habit—since part of our daily life involves her keeping a key nearby; when I head out for yoga, she tells me where it is, I unlock myself, attend class, then re-lock afterward. If I misbehave, the look of disappointment from her is enough to keep me in check.

Either way, over the past year my chastity has shifted more toward an “honor system”—but sometimes… I just can’t resist. Last night, after five days of being locked and some intense denial play, she left me unlocked for bed. This morning, she mentioned waking up in the middle of the night to find the bed shaking. I was masturbating while still fast asleep. She told me to stop, so I did. But today, I’m back in the cage—secured with both the top lock and a secondary “no way out” lock that passes through my frenum piercing.

I suspect she won’t let me sleep without it tonight;) It’s not the first time this has happened overnight. In the past, I’ve admitted to her that I prefer sleeping locked because I don’t trust myself enough otherwise. Last night I thought I’d be fine unlocked; guess I was wrong.

Does anyone else masturbate in their sleep?:P