Introductions discussion

I have been lurking for some time, so I figured it was high time to join in. Chastity has interested me for ages, both as a kink and because I realized I am a frequent, shameless masturbator. After several years of marriage, intimacy became sporadic towards the end. Discovering she had an affair, I proposed chastity as one option among many to help rekindle things and refocus our relationship. The proposal itself didn’t stick (along with other personality clashes—she felt intellectually inadequate)—and we eventually divorced after some soul searching. Last year, I dated a Chinese doctor. On our third date, while making out, she rubbed against my thigh until her orgasm, then gave me a handjob. This became the first of many instances where she climaxed without traditional intercourse and returned the favor with handjobs. She claimed my dick was too large for her liking, though at 5.9” x 4.9”, I am average-sized. She also mentioned an affair she had as a student with another Chinese doctor who possessed a very large penis; they were intimate constantly. First, it stung that an Asian man surpassed me in this regard (which is unusual), and second, she didn’t mind his much larger cock. I suspect she knew she was teasing me by sharing this contradictory story. She masturbated every morning. Since we only met on weekends, she told me she preferred if I abstained during the week. I casually noted that while I liked her daily release routine, I had to wait for mine. She took note; over two months, she would tell me about her mornings and remind me of my abstinence. I obeyed, often going three or four days without release while she teased me. Before wrapping up the Chinese doctor chapter (I will write another post later about my current situation), here is one more tidbit: She once went out of town for nearly a week, teasing me over the phone at night about waiting and her satisfaction. When we reunited, she kept me on edge for hours before finally letting me cum. I never used a device with her, though I planned to eventually; we broke up due to personality issues (she was somewhat eccentric 90% of the time). She did other fun things too, like fingering my butt, making me kiss her feet and suck her toes, placing her panties on my head or around my neck during play, and rubbing my cum all over my chest and neck after I came. As mentioned, I will share more about my current blossoming situation later today.