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Here is my story. My girlfriend and I have been together for seven years. Something has held us back from tying the knot. I’ve been married twice before, and she once. I am forty; she is forty-three. We share our home with two of her children from a previous marriage. Our intimacy and daily life have had their ups and downs, but lately it’s mostly been down. She recently told me she wants to stay chaste until we marry, driven by her religious beliefs. At first, I was upset and viewed it selfishly. How could she do this to me? Eventually, I realized that in my mind, I had replaced her with porn and masturbation. I was jerking off to videos two to four times a day. Our sexual frequency dropped to about once a month, and frankly, it wasn’t great. I recognized that I was addicted to porn and needed assistance. I started going to SAA meetings. I know I have an issue. I’ve also begun using my own chastity device, specifically the CB6000s. I launched a program of periodic releases that I hope will become increasingly rare so far. My GF hasn’t shown much interest in becoming a Keyholder yet, but I remain hopeful. I need to get accustomed to wearing it 24/7 first. Then maybe she can take on the role. It’s all a bit strange for her. I should mention that this journal won’t likely feature lots of sex anytime soon. It will focus more on my chastity and my relationship with my GF. I’ll be recounting our experiences going forward, so enjoy. Feedback is both welcomed and encouraged.