Journals and blogs discussion

Hi everyone. CosmicCandi here. I’ve been on this site for a while, and although I thought I had started a journal before, I couldn’t locate it. So, I’m going to start one now. I discovered BDSM online when I was 13, back in the early days of the web. For several years, I began as a submissive in chat rooms, but I always possessed some sadistic streaks. It took many more years for me to realize that Dominance was something I could not only do but actually enjoy. After considerable introspection, I’ve concluded that I’m a switch; however, lately, I have been deeply exploring my submissive nature. Over the years, I’ve experimented with self-imposed chastity. My first device was a Curve for a dominant girlfriend several years ago. It turned out to be too large and cumbersome, so I couldn’t keep it on for any significant duration. The next one I got was the CB-3000. While better overall, it ended up cutting my testes. Then I tried the Birdlocked, but it was ultimately too small and ripped. After that came an Exobelt device; this one also gave me pinches and cuts eventually. I then acquired a Bon-4, which served as my go-to for quite some time. Most recently, I purchased a 3D printed Espresso and a Chinese device similar to the Looker 02. Although this Chinese model has its issues, it has been the most successful one so far. With this Chinese device, I’ve managed to spend most of the last two years locked up. This experience has pushed me into a more submissive headspace to the point where I’m seriously considering a permanent chastity lifestyle and seeking the right Woman to lead me. As I write this, I have been locked for 15 days and 4 hours. My current Keyholder and I plan for my release at 108 days (matching my personal best) so that I can get a Prince Albert piercing and order my new device, a custom Looker 01 with PA Fixing. It will be powder coated in RAL 5005, and the expectation is that I remain chaste during the healing process. That’s the background story, though it isn’t entirely complete. It doesn’t cover my transition into womanhood or other parts of my life; it focuses mainly on my chastity journey. I hope to continue sharing more along those lines in this journal space.