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My journey has had its share of highs and lows. Previous attempts at staying locked highlighted that I need an emotional connection with someone fairly close by for real-time interaction, rather than just handing over the keys to any old person. Last year, I purchased a Mature Metal device because cheaper options either rusted or didn’t fit well. After trying it on to check the size and other factors, I took it off again, deciding to wait until I met someone with whom I could explore this together. A few weeks ago, I reconnected with an old friend we’d seen and chatted briefly at munches before but never spent much time with. Since she split from her partner, we’ve shared some quality moments. We aren’t full-time partners due to her needs and desires, but we are play partners. She is helping me raise my pain threshold (I don’t just play with anyone; there must be a connection, even though I get frustrated by how little time I spend playing). Now that she’s also exploring her Domme side, she agreed that today I will have an orgasm and then she will lock me up to take control of my orgasms:). I’ve had to ‘top from the bottom’ a bit, insisting that the spare key be sealed in a small plastic box with superglue so I have to smash it open (it serves as an emergency key). I also nudged her into making me wear ladies’ underwear. I hope that over time she will take more control and make decisions based on her growing confidence. So, for the next few hours I remain ‘free,’ heading off to her house after work. I’ll keep you posted:)