Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

It always seems to turn into a long post whenever I write this one. I don’t want my wife to look like an unloving spouse who can’t stand men, so I feel compelled to explain the nuances of our marriage. But I’ll skip all that and just say it: for various reasons, she has consistently maintained that if left alone, I would never orgasm again. We haven’t had intercourse in what feels like forever, nor have we shared a bed during that same time, yet our love remains deep. For most of our marriage, we even shared another woman as a partner; now it’s just the two of us.

This is my fifth try at keeping this short. I’m currently on week 5 of a minimum six-week chastity period. My wife hinted she’d prefer to wait another month, but her slip of the tongue made me think she planned to grant me release by our wedding anniversary later this month. After showering and while waiting for my next lockup session, I asked my wife if she was truly serious about keeping me from having another orgasm forever. I expected a dismissive ‘not really,’ but she confirmed her stance seriously. It is indeed her preference, though she didn’t want to appear cruel by denying me an orgasm for too long. She noted that even these six weeks make it seem like I think she’s harsh with me. I assured her I never saw her as cruel and meant every word when my penis surrendered control to hers. I told her I felt very calm at the moment; in fact, I wasn’t eagerly anticipating my next orgasm because it would vanish in seconds, leaving me back where I started.

Here’s what happened: standing there naked while discussing this, my ‘little head’ took charge of my mouth. My wife asked if I could wait until Christmas. I said yes. Then she asked if I’d be okay waiting longer—until sometime next year when her surgery recovery is complete and she can enjoy an orgasm without pain. Again, the little head agreed. She then questioned whether it was fine for her initial few orgasms to happen while mine are denied, since seeing my sexual frustration pleases her. The ‘little guy’ agreed once more. Then she snapped shut the lock on my CB6000s and headed out for a night with her friends.

When blood returned to my ‘big head,’ I began regretting my agreements. On one hand, it’s exciting, and I’m managing fine without orgasms; indeed, our sex life has improved in other ways. One thing keeping the rising panic at bay is knowing my wife loves me deeply. She might not love my penis as much, but she always delights it because her own pleasure comes from mine. I know that if she notices I’m struggling with chastity, she will look after me. That knowledge makes it easier since I don’t have to worry about suffering or losing enjoyment. In less than a year, my expectations shifted from wanting just two weeks without an orgasm to agreeing as long as the mental distress holds out. She clarified that merely being horny isn’t distress. Time will tell. We’ve played many sexual games throughout our lives, and sometimes rules shift along the way. Eventually, we usually find our rhythm.