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I am currently navigating a self-imposed period of chastity. I have owned a device for about five years, but I’ve never kept it on for more than a few days at a time. I really want to stay locked up as long as possible, holding onto the usual fantasies about enforced lockup over extended periods. Of course, reality makes that quite difficult.

I let myself out for work and sometimes during the night when frustration gets me while sleeping.

Right now I am on day four and starting to reach the point where I really want to give in. Especially since it’s just up to me to keep going. That is why I decided to write this; I figured keeping a little journal might help.

A bit about myself: I am 25, bisexual, and live around the Boston area. My interests include technology, programming, and electrical engineering. Most of my friends are programmers or engineers too.

I just started a timelock session with the keys to my cage secured to a pipe on the basement ceiling. It is set for only an hour and a half, which serves as my usual deterrent when I feel like taking it off. I could easily set it for several days and be truly trapped unless I cut myself out of the device, but I am too scared to do that.

Of course, I would love to find someone to help push me through it. Even if just an online arrangement, I enjoy thinking about being locked up for another person’s sake. I love pleasing others and enjoying the thought of them getting pleasure from my denial. Serving someone and meeting their needs while they deny me release are among my fantasies.

I plan on writing more updates, filling out my profile, and doing other things soon:)